100回泣くこと

「誰かとともに生きるということは、いつか失う悲しみを背負うことであり、同時に、いつか失わせてしまう悲しみを背負うことだと。もし本来の寿命は変わらずに、愛する人よりも先に死ぬか、それとも後に死ぬか、を自分で選べるとしたら、果たしてどちらを望むだろうか。」

"Living your life with someone means you also have to live with the fact that one day you'll have to deal with living without them. Would you prefer to be the one left behind, or the one to leave first?"

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I read the book 「100回泣くこと」by Kou Nakamura. While I have friends who said they weeped during the movie, I admit to not weeping during reading the book. In fact, the first chapter was a struggle to get through. I've no interest whatsoever in motorbikes... But things got better, the story deepened and I started finding myself saying "...just one more page... just one more page..." 

We can all relate to the feeling of losing touch with people we are close to, despite our best efforts. Since coming to Japan, I've been feeling that more and more. Maybe that's why this book made such an impact on me at the end. 

I feel totally depressed now... Haha