Just a bit stressed out at the moment.
Sometimes I wonder why I make things so damn complicated for myself.
So we have to design a magazine about a design topic of your choice at University. This is a whole magazine. What do I chose? Japanese Graphic Design. What else do I do? I say its going to be a bilingual magazine concentrating on Japanese Graphic Design and Designers of the now. Great the teachers say. Great I think. I'm sorted, all I have to do is make it.
...Why did I say this magazine was going to be bilingual?
Boy does that create about 10x the amount of work for me. I chose to do it bilingually so it will look good in my portfolio, it will be something to show potential employers in Japan proving that I can design with Japanese text, and thirdly? Why not? The thing is, my teachers at University have no knowledge of how to design in Japanese. I could make this project work, or it could be a big flop. Its something I would like to achieve, but I doubt I have the time to do so.
As well as that, We have to interview a Graphic Designer of our choice. So what do I go and decide in my head? I want to work in Japan, so I'll interview either a Japanese Designer or a Gaijin Designer in Japan. I know a few Graphic Designers in Japan thanks to my trip in July, but... Most of them are people who work for companies I approached asking for an internship. Should I really bother them with this? I dont want to jeopardise my hopes of an already fading internship. But maybe me interviewing them will show commitment to the fact I want to work in Japan.
On top of all that I have an essay plan to write for the evil racist teacher (Who keeps proclaiming "I'm so lucky I'm not English"...whats that supposed to mean??). And the confusing project has become even more confusing as just when I got my head around it someone comes up to me and says I cant do that. But... nobody said that at the beginning!!
It really annoys me how they say "Relax its only the 3rd week, you dont have to hand in until week 6. Dont stress, just play around with things, see how they work..."
...But, next week is a holiday and if you tell me I've made a complete mess of it in week 5 I'm stuffed. I cant do 6 weeks worth of quality work in a week.
As well as that I've got the voice in my head saying "You should study Japanese more. If you dont study Japanese you wont pass the exam in December. If you dont pass the exam you cant work in Japan next summer. Wont look good to all those companies you wrote to. Will they really take you seriously and employ you when you say you've failed?!"
Jeez I'm stressed.
I wish I could put less pressure on myself.
I guess I am blood type A, huh.