☆不安☆

今日大学に行ってきました。入学して、金を払った。大学生になちゃった。

正しいことをしてるかな。
一番いい結果になるかな。
超心配しています。とても。

はい、また日本に住みたいけど、そんなに?　
分からない。

７月のときに、会社がおもしろくなくて、嫌いので、新しい仕事を見つけてみたかった。けど、何度の面接に行っても、なかなか見つけられなかったので、大学に行ったほうがいいかなと思った。だから、大学生になった。でも今は、今の仕事がそんなに嫌いじゃない。勉強しながら、パートタイムで働き続くつもりので、うれしい。

働く女性の生活になれた。大学生になれるかな。☆不安☆

正しいことをしてるかな。
一番いい結果になるかな。

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Ive gone and done it. Enrolled, paid, signed, had my photo done, everything. You are looking at a full time University student. Shit.

There are times when I think I'm doing the right thing and times when I wonder if I've been a tad too hasty. 3 months ago University never entered my head. 3 months ago I started a new job with different hopes for my future. Why the sudden dramatic change? Because of Japan? Because I found this job dull? Its not as bad as it used to be, at least its a job that you can switch off from when you walk out the door. A job that is not always head-over-heals busy. A job that could lead to better jobs. But, it isnt a job that could lead into Japan. Its miles away from that road that leads to Tokyo. But, even my dreams of living in Tokyo again have faded. I had a great year there, but maybe I should just remember it as that. Things are never as good the second time around. Look at Pirates of the Caribbean.

I need to stop having 2 dreams for what I'd like to do with my life.
Which do I want? Tokyo or design? I cant have both.

Who knows if I'm doing this for the right reasons or if it really is for the best.

Too late now.